So after the gym I came home and pretty much collapsed onto the sofa. I spent the evening in this weird shaky state. I just could not stop my knees wobbling and getting head rushes whenever I got up. I know it was not that I did not eat enough, as I have eaten far less than that before. This is not my way of trying to make excuses by the by, I am just giving you the background leading to it. I am sure you have all guessed by now that I am talking about eating last night when I said to myself and all you guys via my blog, that I would not. I know this is a bit 'rambly', sorry. My bingelet was not horrific and i will not pretend that I am freaking out, because strangely enough I am not. Is that weird? I ended up having 2 small bowls of organic gnocchi and red pesto. I worked it out and it was around the 800 cals mark. Which for only two small bowls seems a load.
I think the reason I am not freaked out is that I took it all into consideration. I had had about 6 hours of sleep in 72 hours, I spend most my working days (which are usually 10 - 13 hours) on my feet, i walk everywhere, I have been to the gym alot (for me) and worked really hard (for me) and usually on almost no food, and I was craving carbs. So yea, I felt I need to be completely honest. I immediately felt better, and I ate very slowly so as not to full out binge, but sometimes it is just necessary.
So yea. I feel better getting that off my chest.
I need to split as I promised I would meet with L to run some errands, I will absolutely post later and comment on all bogs of course.
Sorry again for letting you (and myself down), but I am actually managing the emotions well for me, so that is a positive for once!
Much love girlies,