I think anyone who reads this blog should get used to the word fail. i tend to sabotage myself in all aspects of my life, and it would seem my journey back to
ana and back to thin is no exception. So at 4 am this morning i woke up and made myself 2 and a half of those healthy living lean turkey steaks. okay okay, so i know they are only 100
cals each, so 250 in total. and i know turkey is a
superfood with some amazing properties, and apparently the amino acids in it even help you sleep. My annoyance is not about the calories. for the whole day i probably hit just under 300
cals. it was more the fact that i told myself no, but in the end i did it anyway. i even had the check to justify it to myself by saying "I said tomorrow would be a food day and only fat free
yoghurt and turkey, and it is tomorrow".
I suppose i should be grateful that it did not turn into a binge and i actually went back to bed to sleep more. oh joy.
on a different not i need to go to town today and do all my errands i have been putting off in favour of staying in my sweats at home. i can not be bothered.
right well this was really a very nothing-y entry. it is just i have resolved to be absolutely honest on here, or else what is the point. and if i were to lie i would deserve no one's support on here at all.
thank you again ladies,
ella xx
Yes, your day could have DEFINITELY been worse. 250 calories isn't a binge-- it's pretty much half a meal!
ReplyDeleteBut I COMPLETELY understand your feelings of disappointment. I am sending you hugs from America.
OH! And thank you for being so nice. I really appreciate it.
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