So yesterday went from disappointing to more so after I signed off last night. I had another two small turkey steaks (200 cals) and some more Philadelphia extra light and wholewheat thins ( 60 cals and 38 cals). I need to have some kind of lock placed on my mouth that is set to reject anything that is not necessary so that I do not collapse!
However, in an attempt to look on the bright side (I am sure you are wondering how there could possibly be a bright side), I reached an Epiphany last night considering my little binges. I suddenly know when and why I do them. I am alone, always and with out fail (though I am sure that is the same for everyone else). And I am always alone at home, I never go to MacDonald's and binge or something. I do not binge when I am upset, or happy or angry. My binges are not emotional. My binges are triggered by boredom, pure and utter boredom! This may not sound like a major breakthrough, but I have been convinced I am an emotional eater but could never pin point what it was. So a plan has formed to help combat this. I always am at home, alone and extremely bored at least 3 times per week. So it will be these days that I use to go to the gym. And yes I am quitting my plush gym and joining the one just down my road instead so I have no time constraints and no excuses.
Has anyone else noticed I am avoiding the subject of the weigh in? Well I did a preliminary one, and will send my result to Rayray, but I have also just noticed (and sorry if this grosses anyone out) that I cannot recall any BM for a few days now. So I am going to buy some herbal lax. I know we all say we should not take them, but a few days is a while, and it is weigh day. So I will take them (maybe tomorrow when I am not meant to be going to a movie later) and then re-weigh, see what kind of difference it makes.
Moving on, as for making up for yesterday, I am planning to only have a diet coke, mineral water and gum all day. Then at the cinema I will get these fat free slush things that are nutritionally void, but at least have almost zero cals (and taste yummy) and maybe a little popcorn before cocktails and that is it. I have not even thought about tomorrow yet.
Okay girlies, must dash, errands to run!
much love as always,