So yesterday went from disappointing to more so after I signed off last night. I had another two small turkey steaks (200 cals) and some more Philadelphia extra light and wholewheat thins ( 60 cals and 38 cals). I need to have some kind of lock placed on my mouth that is set to reject anything that is not necessary so that I do not collapse!
However, in an attempt to look on the bright side (I am sure you are wondering how there could possibly be a bright side), I reached an Epiphany last night considering my little binges. I suddenly know when and why I do them. I am alone, always and with out fail (though I am sure that is the same for everyone else). And I am always alone at home, I never go to MacDonald's and binge or something. I do not binge when I am upset, or happy or angry. My binges are not emotional. My binges are triggered by boredom, pure and utter boredom! This may not sound like a major breakthrough, but I have been convinced I am an emotional eater but could never pin point what it was. So a plan has formed to help combat this. I always am at home, alone and extremely bored at least 3 times per week. So it will be these days that I use to go to the gym. And yes I am quitting my plush gym and joining the one just down my road instead so I have no time constraints and no excuses.
Has anyone else noticed I am avoiding the subject of the weigh in? Well I did a preliminary one, and will send my result to Rayray, but I have also just noticed (and sorry if this grosses anyone out) that I cannot recall any BM for a few days now. So I am going to buy some herbal lax. I know we all say we should not take them, but a few days is a while, and it is weigh day. So I will take them (maybe tomorrow when I am not meant to be going to a movie later) and then re-weigh, see what kind of difference it makes.
Moving on, as for making up for yesterday, I am planning to only have a diet coke, mineral water and gum all day. Then at the cinema I will get these fat free slush things that are nutritionally void, but at least have almost zero cals (and taste yummy) and maybe a little popcorn before cocktails and that is it. I have not even thought about tomorrow yet.
Okay girlies, must dash, errands to run!
much love as always,
ella xx
Have fun at the movies! And I think your plan is excellent.
ReplyDeletei dont think the herbal ones are too bad... and if you've had really processed foods lately you might just need it anyhow?
ReplyDeletei'm not happy about weigh day!
I am a bored eater too!
ReplyDeleteAnd I don't even realize it until it's consumed that that's what I'm doing.
Good luck with all of this!
u did super well with ur weigh in! :] so happy for u!
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